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Moving forward..

addikit — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 08:11:28 +0000

So I’m moving on to Blogger/Blogspot.. So if you read this (somehow I doubt I have any followers on here) but you can find me at Addikit.BlogSpot.com

peace.

Counter-Productive..

addikit — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 06:39:14 +0000

So I’ve noticed that I’ve not been able to find the time to write what I’ve wanted to write, I haven’t really written anything at all..

So I’ve been super hesitant about the Air Force lately. I’ve found a job offer to be an Administrative slash Personal Assistant for a couple of gay guys and I think it could be a really fun job, along with my current job that is since it would only be a few days out of the week. But yeah, that along with about to be rent free, I’ll be making some pretty good dollars with really really flexible hours meaning I could enjoy everything that there is to do this summer. Such as Warped Tour!!! ah, I’m way excited about it!!

Well anyways, I need to go to sleep What a fun blog? lol

What a week

addikit — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 08:54:26 +0000

So.. where to begin?

Monday was my date with the online boy it went well. Started off etchy though. Since I was supposed to ride the train, but he ended up coming down here with his friend. So we met at Arby’s, strange place, I know. But it was close to my friend Christopher’s work so we could eat while I waited for him to come down.

Well, he’s pretty cute in real life as well also way funny. The ONLY drawback was how young he looked. I mean, I’m into younger guys but yeah. lol. Anyways, I wont try and make that some kind of deal breaker. Anyways, we ate at Macaroni Grill, went to a concert for a few minutes, went bowling (don’t judge us), and then to my cousin’s party. Which started off extremely awkward, because Jimmy was there, my cousin’s friend and also this boy that I like, he’s way hot, driven, etc, but just a little more outgoing than me and well, he’s my cousin’s friend. Last time I hooked up with my cousin’s friend it made things different and all I know is that my cousin and him aren’t friends anymore. So I wont do that with Jimmy. I’ll kiss him, but I wont make it anything more than friends. However, the heartbreaker for me is that Jimmy likes me =/ and to be there with another guy like that? I really didn’t think Jimmy did like me like that. I just thought we flirted and made out as friends slash he was drunk =/ but guess not.. because he took me outside and told me that he was way sad and that he would have gone out with me if I had ever asked him to.. I’m not going to lie, we kissed, but not like, a lustful kiss, was more of a.. well, ya. I’m just lucky Matt (internet boy) didn’t notice. Me and him (Matt) ended up making out for a while on the couch at the end of the night, I was pretty far under the influence, I feel like such a whore.

So the next day I had to take him to his friend’s house because I needed to spend some time with the family, especially my dad since he was going to be here only for a little while.

Now for Wednesday, that was the night of The Used, which Matt (internet boy) was supposed to come too, but I procrastinated on buying his ticket and so I couldn’t get him one anymore online but the concert was amazing. I liked the opening bands a lot (The Bled and Loom), more metal that what I’m really into, but still not bad at all. Ha, the sad part about the whole night was the crowd surfing, bad idea. I went a few times (4 if I recall correctly) and on the fourth one I totally wasn’t caught by a security guard, so I just hit the ground, pretty hard, lol. So my back is soooo sore. lol. But nothing serious, just no fast movements for a while =P

Well, off to sleep –.-zZ

Anxiety with meeting new people

addikit — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 04:57:54 +0000

So in my last post I mentioned liking someone from the internet and well, creating this ‘perfect boy’ because I didn’t really know the person at all. Well, he seems to be more amazing everyday and we’re going on a date tomorrow. How nervous is that?

But yeah, this boy is wicked good at drawing and painting, which is like, amazing. He even plays the drums. If I could change any one thing about myself it would be either to be musically inclined or artistic. So the fact that he’s both <3

I don’t know. I guess I’m setting myself up for failure, lol. I don’t exude confidence in myself which doesn’t really flatter myself at all. Oh well, I’m sure it will be fun regardless since I’m going to ride the train up to Santa Fe to see him. Which is something I’ve wanted to do for a while.

Insomnia rules

addikit — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 10:25:19 +0000

It’s 4:30am again and I’m still awake (again). I even woke up pretty early today too.. It’s not even like I wasn’t that tired or anything tonight, but I got so sidetracked with Zune’s Marketplace, but I’m actually really glad that I did because I found a lot of really awesome bands

So have you ever liked someone over the internet (that lived close by) but mostly because you didn’t know them so you kind of made them ‘perfect’ in your mind? or maybe I’m desperate for a relationship now.. lol. I don’t know what’s happened between me and Nick (well, I do, actually) but strangely enough not being tied with him has made me want a boy in my life..

Eh, something I shouldn’t dwell on right now. Maybe later. =P

Weekend lameness..

addikit — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 10:10:55 +0000

Eh, I haven’t really made good $$ for being the weekend and so far I’ve been missing out on oodles of fun. Super lame. Bleh, I need to have a better idea of my future plans with school and the military. I need to talk to a counselor for school and I need to talk to a recruiter for the military and then I really need to think about where I want to live..

So, did ya know I’m going to Las Vegas.. TWICE. Once in the first weekend of April and again in June. Exciting! More on that later though =P For now, I should get some sleep.

Bleh, lonely I guess..

addikit — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 09:06:20 +0000

Living where I do, it’s a very rare occasion to see an attractive person and even more so to see one that might even possibly be gay. So when I do, it’s sort of depressing. Because I know that they wouldn’t be in my ‘league’ or whatever and if they are, I don’t know for sure that they’re gay, so you can’t just walk up to them and make simple talk, it would just be way to strange. So to know that you will probably never see them again.. eh. Too bad things just wont ever work out between me and Nick. I know it’s mostly me. But whatever..

So in other news, I didn’t make shit for cash at work tonight. Which sucks since it was a Friday night. Oh well, I suppose. Better luck tomorrow I suppose.

Night-

The life ahead of me..

addikit — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 19:58:14 +0000

The first week of March is almost over. I have a new Netbook that you can read about here. I should have my Beetle paid off around the middle of the month, and I’ve decided on what I wan to do with my future.

USAF or United States Air Force. However, before joining I will be going to school this Fall semester for at least 15 credit hours. This greatly increases my chances of enlisting. As far as the physical and the ASVAB I’ll attempt to take those before August.

Now, as for living. I plan to move out of my current house in April or May and live with my Uncle until August in which I will either move to Laguna and live with my aunt to attend NM State in Grants or I can just continue to live with my Uncle and attend UNM VC. Now the huge dilemma is I’m on some sort of Academic Probation with UNM VC because I’m an idiot. I went for two semesters and failed two semesters. When really I should have just dropped my classes, instead I pretty much just didn’t show up for them. So really, I have to beg to be able to enroll into any of the colleges that I try to enroll at.

Wish me luck.

Change.

addikit — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 08:20:47 +0000

Kind of a follow up from my last blog..

I’ve made some changes in a way. I’ve stopped doing some of my daily routines (wont go into detail) and I’m making future plans with old friends.

Meaning (hopefully) that I’ll be back to my old self. Hanging out with my friends. Maybe partying it up and possibly clubbing again. However, clubbing might not even be very possible here anymore. I don’t know of any place that’s open anymore. To the gays that is.

I’ve also realized that I need to fix a problem that I have with my friends. I never want any of them to meet each other. Which is strange when you think about it. It also created a huge problem for me when it came to hanging out with friends. If I was with a friend already I couldn’t visit another friend because I didn’t want them to meet.

So I’m no longer going to do that and I’m going to encourage my friends to meet my other friends

Anyways. I’m off to sleep.